Do you remember your first crush? Mine was_____.wait! For legality purposes, let’s call him….” TS”.
I would see him by the trampoline after school in the gym. It was the second grade folks, settle down. He was tall, worked his afro, wore brown cords and a blue shirt. He had the craziest laugh and would say some corny jokes. I dug him. We were a couple for one week. Holding hands in the cafeteria, beating him at jacks, sharing green apple now and laters.
Ah bliss.

The Celebrity
When I was 15 years old I loved two things, basketball and Jessica Lange. I saw her in Tootsie and was totally smitten. She was thirty one, gorgeous and a grin that gave me butterflies. She may have been younger.  My first celebrity crush. Then she was in Frances, a movie about Frances Farmers life. It was shot in West Seattle and I kind of know someone who broke into the house and stole a rock. What happened to this rock? Who knows?
Same year, I bought Rolling Stone magazine as she was on the cover. I still have it in a box. I should frame it.

Then a few months later there was the film premiere of “Frances” shown at the paramount theater. I sat in the balcony, alone in the front row. I don’t remember what I was wearing. But I remember feeling strong, confident, happy, nervous and very caught up in my first premier.

My last crush was on a man I met many moons ago. When I first him, we had coffee and spoke for hours it was the best foreplay I had in years. After our first meeting he messaged me and said, “you have beautiful eyes, you get that a lot right?”

He was hot, refined, funny, strong, smart, an amazing conversationalist. Sex was amazing. Butterflies always stayed with me before and after I saw him.

Ah bliss.