Month: September 2016

Fallen Hard

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Remember when you fell hard? It could have been the way they touched you? Grabbed you? Kissed you? Fucked you? That feeling is captivating, sensual and so meaningful and hot!!

I do.

There have been so many times. 

An older woman fucking you in a car. 

A lover sleeping with you on his office floor.

Sex in a van. 

Sex in a hot tub outside while drinking champers.

Sex on a beach. 

Sex on the rug. 

Sex outside on a bench.

Someone holding sex for months…then you kiss and to be cheesy…it’s electric! 

You want it.

You’ve fallen hard. 

Treading Water

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This year has gone by so fast! I can’t believe it’s already September soon to be October. So many changes.

 For the three of you who don’t know, I have been single this whole year. It’s been good and bad at times.In my mind, you know? 

 Sometimes, I wake up and have seen him in my dreams. He’s standing in my kitchen cooking me up a medium steak,  drinking barolo wine, watching peep show while stroking my calves, but none of this happened. I see him. But we’re gone. I wish it weren’t forever…but he has left the building. There’s that rewind button when you miss EVERYTHING you had with him and you want to push it. But you can’t. 

You’re at a crossroads and being pulled….let it go….hold on….hope…or tread water. 

I juggle the love I once had. 

The love I give others. 

The love I want.

The love I lost.

The love. 

So.. I tread water….

Alzheimer’s a bitch!

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So my mum is showing early signs of it. Well she had been for two years. It’s rough. Why? You never know what your walking into. Is she dressed? Sleeping? There? Remember me? Alert? Happy? Lonely? 

I don’t know. I never will. I have to suck in all of my pain, sadness, paranoia and be happy. Up! Always up! Laugh through the pain.

One never feels the illness coming and when it does….you have to just hold on… Tight..

Stay strong

Clear

And show love