This year has gone by so fast! I can’t believe it’s already September soon to be October. So many changes.

 For the three of you who don’t know, I have been single this whole year. It’s been good and bad at times.In my mind, you know? 

 Sometimes, I wake up and have seen him in my dreams. He’s standing in my kitchen cooking me up a medium steak,  drinking barolo wine, watching peep show while stroking my calves, but none of this happened. I see him. But we’re gone. I wish it weren’t forever…but he has left the building. There’s that rewind button when you miss EVERYTHING you had with him and you want to push it. But you can’t. 

You’re at a crossroads and being pulled….let it go….hold on….hope…or tread water. 

I juggle the love I once had. 

The love I give others. 

The love I want.

The love I lost.

The love. 

So.. I tread water….