anymore… You know when you really loved someone, or liked them. You were and always have been interested in them. You used to relish in their everyday details. Their trips, bike rides, work etc. You love their hair, smile, touch, music, interests and voice. Then one day nothing.

Now, all he does is ask you about yourself.

They don’t share.

This a de ja vu for me. I’ve written this before.

You’ll see them and have a wonderful dinner or chat and then you’re open again and you trust them but then they say they’ll change and there’s no change. They say they’ll call you and they don’t. Teach you things. Show you cities you’ve both been too. They never will. They claim to be unhappy in their life but it’s all lies.

You see all the joy. Social Media is a bitch.

You’re  nothing to them. Twenty eight minutes of time. That’s too fucking sad after eight years. An angry woman could change their life in three seconds. By using the internet and sending a message, people. But that’s not me.
I just stay angry inside and keep it together. It’s not worth it.

I feel as each day passes. I don’t wanna know you anymore. I beg for your time, your emails, your affection and your touch… I now see its pointless. I got you through the rough times but now you can “manage”.

I will slowly fade away from his life…
And call it day. It’s hard but if THEY don’t want you. It’s time to go.
I was hoping to change the cycle of the whole break up disappearance, as if we’ve never met. I’ve done it soo many times.! Who hasn’t? Ladies? Gents?

I know, it’s common to break up and never see that person again.

I was hoping that wouldn’t happen to me.

So I have chosen to disappear. Focus on your life. Forget about me.

We have no future. No life. Nothing.

It’s time.
Not that it matters..but I’ll be fine.

I don’t wanna know you anymore.

Plus, I wanna be around someone who actually likes me, is interested in me and has time..for me.